Meet Angel Gydesen The Story
As a little girl I never dreamed of getting married or having kids. I was more focused on trying to survive life as one of the youngest of 8. I don’t ever want to speak ill of my family, but they didn’t make my life easy. I would tell myself, if I have kids, I don’t want them to have a hard life like I did. Since then, I’ve been married twice and divorced twice, with 2 boys and ended up being a single mom. I may not have dreamed of getting married or having kids, but I didn’t anticipate the life I ended up with. Being in survival mode as a kid I was only thinking about how to make it through the day and not much room to think about the future.
I blinked and I graduated from high school and had no plans for my future. I was enrolled in college but flunked out due to partying too much. After a while I ended up meeting a handsome man who I dated a couple months and he was in the coast guard. The way he described his job sounded like a dream job and I wanted in. I started working towards joining the coast guard I took the ASVAP test and was on my way until… I met another boy. Him and I became inseparable, but I still had plans of going into the coast guard, so we agreed it was a temporary relationship, until oops I became pregnant and just like that the coast guard was off the table. I ended up becoming a mom, a hairstylist, and a wife all at once, not what I anticipated.
I wasn’t Angel Gydesen any more I was Angel McCabe, a married hairstylist with a kid. I was still struggling to find my identity and my marriage ended up not working out and I had hit rock bottom after my divorce. I’m embarrassed to admit it, but I went into a downward spiral and was drinking alcohol excessively. With my beer goggles on I ended up in a toxic relationship that would change my life forever. I was battling alcoholism, my ex-husband and now a guy with a drug problem. After winding up in jail and almost dying in a river, I was soon to be pregnant again this time with a loser’s baby who ended up a deadbeat father and left me to raise our son on my own with zero help. You all know my younger son today as Bently from my book “My Memories Live Without a Voice”.
Having to raise a son on my own really woke me up to life and had me really thinking about my future. I did have visitation rights of my oldest, but he had a wonderful father and I didn’t have to raise my oldest on my own. I really thought about what I wanted to be and all I could think was I wanted to be a boss of some sort and I was good at customer service work, so I ended up going to college for hospitality tourism management. As a single mom working and going to college was very difficult, but I made it through and graduated in 2015. Soon after I graduated, I met another boy.
It was love at first sight, so I thought, and ended up marrying him and became Angel Ostrom. He was a great stepfather, but not so great of a husband, because he couldn’t hold a job and was cheating on me, and one day left me for another woman. I was back to being a divorcee, but I didn’t turn to alcohol this time, but I met another boy. This boy was different he was an old friend from high school, but I was thinking of him as only a friend, but he was thinking of me as a way out of his crappy life, but I didn’t know that at first. He was what is called a squatter. A squatter is a person without a home who invades another person’s home without their knowledge. This boy made excuses to be in my home and refused to leave and forced a relationship with me. He ended up ruining my life and my name. This criminal boy who ruined my life would soon ruin his own life and wound up in prison, where he belonged.
Once that guy was out of my life I could focus again and have remained single even today. The past 4 years were the most peaceful times of my life, and I really started to work on myself and focus on who I am. I changed my name back to Angel Gydesen and set my path to being successful. During this time, I became an assistant manager, then went into healthcare and became a CNA and found my passion in healthcare, but also wrote my book which is another passion of mine, and finally life was beginning to look a whole lot better.
There have been so many trials and tribulations in my life but one thing I can say is, my kids have a good life and even though I personally had issues I never let my kids go without and kept my promise and gave them a good and hopefully easy life. I sacrificed a lot but knew being a good mom was not an option. Aside from being a good mom I learned what was important in life, and its not money, it’s being a good person, mentor, and family member, and getting right with God. That’s right, getting right with the man upstairs changed my life and I couldn’t have written the book without him.
My mom one day announced she had written a book, I thought that it was amazing! It made me remember I used to love to write, but quit due to a traumatic event, but my mom inspired me. On Christmas of 2024 I was conversing with my family and we were telling stories about Bently and how silly he is. At that very moment I came up with the idea for my book and asked my family members who are close to him to tell me their favorite stories of him and just like that the book idea was born. One year later I was able to publish it and here we are today.